Homosexuality & the Bible: My First Time
I remember the first time I looked up homosexuality in the Bible: I grabbed my Bible off the bookshelf, closed my bedroom door, sat cross-legged on the floor, and opened directly to the index.
I slid my finger down the page passing holiness; I remember passing holiness. I paused. I’m getting close.
I check to make sure the bedroom door is still closed.
I slid my finger down further.
Even looking at the word was terrifying. There were five pages listed. I flipped to the first one. It wasn’t a verse but rather a lesson box in my Teen Study Bible. I read it:
Alternative lifestyle usually refers to making a sexual choice. The impression is that any choice is alright, it’s just a matter of preference. When it comes to sex, to kid yourself into thinking some of those choices are morally alright.
- It’s wrong to have sex with any close relative (Leviticus 18:6-18)
- It’s wrong to have sex with animals (Leviticus 18:23)
- It’s wrong to have homosexual sex (Leviticus 18:22)
If someone tells you that homosexuality is an alternative lifestyle—meaning that it’s ok, don’t let those words fool you. It’s an alternative alright: a sinful one.
Hmmmm. Not good.
I flip back to the index. Surely the other pages will uncover some nuance or offer a different perspective. Back and forth I flipped from index to reference, each one the same. I flip to the last one. Surely this one would contradict the others, would tell me that it’s ok—that I’m ok…
But it’s more of the same: Homosexuality is a sin. Gy people are choosing to live in sin. AIDS is the result of sinful behavior. Gay people can change if they want to.
I close m Bible. I don’t know what to do. There it is. Written on the page. Crystal clear. No getting around it.
Sinful. Abomination. Damned.
Who I like is sinful. Who I love is sinful. Who I am is sinful.
Where could I possibly go from here? I don’t know but I can’t shake the feeling that I’m not seeing the whole story. That even though it seems so black and white on the page there must be some shades of grey that I’m not seeing. There must be some explanation.
There must be.
And I’ll find it.